What am I missing ? What am I missing ? What am I missing?

What am I missing ?

After turning myself into busy bee for the past few months, at current, I left myself with an empty mind. 

A mind seeks further growth to refine myself, once more.

The knowledge journey I missed dearly and I can’t get enough of what can’t enlighten my mind.

Wasted efforts and time have been my friends these days and the path to the mountain top will gather my focus, with peace of mind.

Yes, I wish to grow and continue finding the interesting journey of the world.

To some extent, my sight to read golden delight will need me to come back to focus.

 Seriously, I need to get back to myself.

 Someone once said, struggle is good, it means a growth in process.  

 

 

登山

Saul Bellow (1915 – 2005)

In the greatestest confusion there is still an open channel to the soul. It may be difficult to find because by midlife it is overgrown, and some of the wildest thickets that surround it grow out of what we describe as our education. 

But the channel is always there, and it is our business to keep it open, to have access to the deepest part of ourselves. “

我想,一個目標又一個目標不只是生命中的事情.

是一種不去撕裂失望與絕望的意至與用心.

坦白的對話在心裡找到疑惑, 失望的一角. 

空空的, 空空……

細細的想著. 慢慢的與它對話, 我需要你的扶助幫助我成長.

沉重, 失落, 累…

於是,

看著這兩個影片, 一個讓我激動, 一個讓我想哭. 感動得哭.

追求生命的價值, 做學問的態度. 熱愛人生的時間.

就在那個角落, 一個一直一直找尋而不會放棄的用心.

是不會辦不到的堅定, 有力, 是山中的泉水湧入心頭.

呼吸, 呼吸 再呼吸.  為什麼不明瞭?

我疑惑, 咖啡般的沉默